sometimes u just gotta say “okey dokey” and just like.. rely on urself.. take things as impersonally as u can.. love and let go.. move on.. try and find all the good things, soak those in. and that’s all u can do! and sometimes, that’s enough
If you’re serious about change, you have to go thru uncomfortable situations & stop trying to dodge the process. It’s the only way to grow.
SUMMER 2017 RESTART!!!!! Getting back into working out again lololol starting from the beginning again after not working out for pretty much a year. Ill make a formal post later mayyyybeeeee
I’m not sure what I’ll do, but— well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I want to live where things happen on a big scale.
Run like hell and get the agony over with.
Here is thing I learned when I was 29, which I now give away for free:
If you want to do a thing, do it now, or as soon as feasible. Because
there might not be a later.
If it is a complicated or expensive or hard
thing that takes many stages or has a steep learning curve, start working on the
parts you can work on while you can work on them, then move on to the next
thing. Accept that there will be a lot of failures along the way, and that you
can come back from nearly any mistake that doesn’t involve making a left turn in
front of an oncoming semi. Concentrate on yourself and what you can do, and
don’t rely on other people to fix things for you, even though you might love
them or they you. (This doesn’t mean you can’t love friends or family or
partners. Friends and family and partners, in the long run, are the thing other
than Useful Work and Adventures that make life worthwhile. Well, all that, and a
really nice coffee and tea kit in the kitchen and the skill to use it.
But that last thing isn’t terribly expensive unless you make it be.)
But
to succeed at a thing–a job, a relationship–in the long term, the thing is:
You Must Commit, even though commitment is scary. And commitment is scary
because once you’re in you’re in. It’s not bobbing around close to the
shore, paddling with your feet. It’s both feet and swimming as hard as you can
out where the rip currents and the sharks are, where the water turns blue.
You can’t hold back because you’re afraid of getting hurt: you have to
accept that you are going to get hurt, and put your hand in the fire of your own
free will.
It’s like climbing. You can make sure you’ve got good ropes
and a belayer you trust (you SHOULD make sure you have good ropes and a belayer
you trust!), but there’s moves you can’t make unless you’re willing to risk
falling. I’m not saying follow your bliss off a cliff, in other words: part of
being prepared and committed is having the right kit, whether it’s money in the
bank for the lean times when starting off as a freelancer, or a partner who
supports your work, or being young enough that starving in a cold room for a few
years with pneumonia is romantic (I have the T-shirt!).
That’s why it’s
scary. It’s scary because you are taking an actual chance.
But:
things don’t work out the way you want them to if you just kind of drift along
seeing what will happen. Nice things might happen! …but they didn’t, for
me.
Basically, what I figured out was that I had to be a protagonist if I
wanted anything to happen, and part of being a protagonist was accepting that I
might fail. And then have to deal with that failure. And that if I didn’t do it
I would more or less inevitably fail, but I could pretend to myself that it
wasn’t because I wasn’t good enough and that I didn’t know why.
Seeking
success, in other words, meant letting go of a layer of ego defense.
This
realization directly led to me having the career I always wanted, and doing
pretty well at it.
It also led to me having the best relationship of my
life. I wish I’d learned it when I was sixteen, rather than twenty-nine, but I
had some things I had to work through first.
So that thing you want to do? Assuming it’s not illegal or immediately fatal? Do it now.
Every regret I have in my life is from ignoring this principle.
Personal growth becomes so addictive once you realize that it’s always possible to improve your experience of being.
You don’t get better on the days when you feel like going. You get better on the days when you don’t want to go, but you go anyway. If you can overcome the negative energy coming from your tired body or unmotivated mind, you will grow and become better. It won’t be the best workout you have, you won’t accomplish as much as what you usually do when you actually feel good, but that doesn’t matter. Growth is a long term game, and the crappy days are more important.
A failure is not always a mistake, it may simply be the best one can do under the circumstances. The real mistake is to stop trying.
